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As an experiment in writing, I wrote one line of a conversation I pretended to have between two fictional characters that isn’t actually in a story.  I just wanted to use it at some point in the future.  Then I did the editing.  But as a twist, I did not actually delete the original line I wrote.  Instead, I wrote and rewrote the line until I was happy (for relative values of “happy”) with the finished sentence.

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So in the end, we cannot sit around and wait for deities to descend from the celestial reaches, surrounded by angelic choirs. We have to settle for the love of human beings. And this one
 loves you. And that’s going to have to be enough. Continue reading

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Week 3

This is the third week of “living” sans internet connectivity at my place.

Sure, I can connect at work, but ever since the home link was severed, I can feel myself growing ever more distant from coremind.

So I think about doing something, then realize I need an internet connection to do it.

It’s rather maddening.

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NYC, Day 0

I’m shaking and I don’t know why.

Normally, I get anxious before I travel. Doesn’t matter when or where.

Usually it’s right when I have to start packing. The questions begin to start in my head. Have I brought enough? Did I bring everything I would need? Then the procrastinating begins.  A search for some little thing I’m not even planning to bring on the trip, some web browsing, maybe some video games.

This time, none of that works.

This time it’s different.

I can’t stop the shaking and there’s an overwhelming feeling of being trapped.

And I don’t know why.

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NYC, Early Evening 3

Staring into the hollow, tiny eyes of a bronze statue, I stop to think for a moment. I hold the cucumber eel brown rice sushi in my chopsticks and then I realize.

I have no idea where the hell I am. Continue reading

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NYC, Day 3

I think I’m getting it.

Walk downtown on Church. Pass Ground Zero.

Join throng of people headed downtown.

Left at Pine.

Jaywalk, hang a right when I feel like it.

Avoid bike messenger going wrong way down one way street into oncoming traffic.

Cross with the light this time, making sure to avoid the hybrid taxi edging its way through the crosswalk, the same crosswalk filled with people.

Avoid line of people entering fifth starbucks in three blocks.

Pass The World of Golf.

Barrel through family of tourists that decided to make the stop right in the middle of the sidewalk during rush hour wearing those incredibly stupid looking statue of liberty foam headbands.

I hate those headbands.

Grab blueberry yogurt parfait at Pax Wholesome Foods.

Arrive at training center.

Bang.  Easy.

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