Today is the first day in a long time that I’ve felt like singing. It’s been such a long time since I’ve felt like singing. What a terrible thing to write.
Today is also the first day in a long time that I’ve felt like being visible again.
Let me back up a bit.
Back when I decided to take a sabbatical from social media. I was just getting sick of reading everything over the course of the previous administration.
Every unjust, hurtful statement.
Every… you know, I’m going to be honest, this was just about every time anyone associated with the previous administration opened their mouth and said anything.
My personal reserves ran dry.
So I decided to take a break. I reviewed the last thing I remember posting. It was a picture on Instagram of a board game I played at a friend’s house. I ducked out, announced nothing, and decided to use that time differently.
I focused inward. I threw myself into personal non public slacks, private signal messages, and worked on building better relationships with my relatives and my found family.
Just about a year in, about a month before I was set to return, a pandemic happened.
A Pandemic. The kind of thing that happens in history books. The great plagues of yore. And even then, it’s only something I’ve read about. Surely we live in a time and age where we know how to handle these things because of science, and reason.
Now, 400,000 people are dead. Clearly, I was wrong. I was wrong about a lot of things. About my neighborhood, about America, about my career.
Time passed and life changed. In some ways better, in some ways worse, in a lot of ways different.
I thought I was going to make it to the second year, but well, here we are.
The first day in a long time that I’ve felt like singing, and it feels wonderful.